Final Countdown

It has been a chaotic and emotional 48 hours or so. I finally heard back from HR that my background check was complete and I was extended the *official* job offer for AD Trainee. This coming after a phone call to my (new) manager for CA. I am down to less than two weeks remaining in Macon (as a resident) and my last 3 days in Macon (at this call center). Due to the delays in my background check since I am coming from out of state means delays in the money from work for the move. This has added some stress to coordinating some details.

And as if I was not already stressed and panicking enough with packing & coordinating the move details, I got some very bad news last night that my plans for housing in LA fell through. This came as a shock. The person who was to be my roommate in LA turned out to be a catfish and scammer. I felt sick to my stomach when I found out. I was already exhausted physically from packing and cleaning all day. The emotional toll had me up half the night. I spent hours scouring rental apps to try to find alternate options for housing. Trying to now figure out deposits and when I'll be able to move in. (Still waiting on the money from work for the original estimate -- that did not include a deposit.)

Today was a day I need to be packing and cleaning for another 8 hours. But it is really hard to pack when I now don't know where I'll be living or how much stuff I can take with me.

Even with the added chaos/stress/panic, I still feel like I am supposed to move towards this job. This new information has definitely increased the level of faith this move is requiring. And I won't have the safety net of a built-in friend when I get to LA that I thought I would have. I still have moments of doubt where I wonder if this has all been a huge mistake, but then I think I knew this would be risky when I applied.

This week and the next few days may show me more of who I really am and what I'm made of than any other week of my life.